Underestimation? New View?

You Know I Will Never Change The Way I View Myself. Because It Is The Total Opposite Of How The World Sees Me && What The World Expects From Me. Which Is Probably At Most Negative And Stereotyped. It Is What Makes Me Proud Of Myself Because I Proved Them/He/She Wrong. The World Doesn't Revolve Around Me, Which Is Why I Guess I'm Having Issues In This World. I've Been Through Things An American Teenager Wouldn't Usually Go Through. It's Been To The Extent That, I Should've Crashed From The Start. And Obviously Been On A Different Path. I Vary From That Group && Have Shown Sense And Capability. I Am Capable Of Heading To The Path Of Destruction. But I'm Not. I Am Following The Path Of Ime. Not Destruction. Because I Follow My Own Path To Live And Produce My Life, There Will Be Ostacles That Will Indeed Make Moves To Destroy It ! Or Dismantle It...But You Know What... It Is Okay. I Live According To The Motives And Routines Of The Real World. There Were Points In My Life Where I Felt That Survival In This World Is Impossible. But Now That I See How Much Of A Person I Am && The Great Ideas I Have For Myself And My Future And My Life ! I Want To Live It ! I'm Looking Foward To The Things I Have To Go Through To Get There ! I Need Satisfaction In My Life ! For Survival && I Know What I Have To Do To Get There ! It Is My Education And Self Respect ! You Know I've Never Had A Problem With Academics. Academic Success Comes To Me With Ease. But Self Respect && Self- Esteem Has Been A Struggle With Me For Years ! I've Never Thought That I Would Ever Look In The Mirror And Say Oh I'm So Pretty Or That Someone Other Than My Mother And Father Would Tell Me That I'm Beautiful Or Pretty. But Now That I've Grown A Love For Myself Thanks To The Destruction MY Mother Has Brought To My Life.. I Am Feeling Just So Good About Myself !! Finally ! Everyday ! I Enjoy Being An Outkast...Performing Outlandish Acts... And Being Naturally Eccentric. It Feels Great To Feel Your Own Feeling. And Think Your Own Way About Everything ! It Gets You Places !